Who am I to you?

Why does it feels so heartbreaking, to find out that people whom I thought understands me the most, be the ones who didnt understand me that well?
While others, might even understand me more then them.
So what if I could say everything to them? In the end, it won't help me at all..

Manymanymanymany questions in my head.
Are you going to tell me the answers?
Or am I going to run away from this problem again?

Run, ran, ran. is it this one? HAHAHA.
What to do, ): . Cant tell you, you, you, you you, you , you , youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. :(

I wanna be strong,
I wanna be independent,
I wanna do things on my own,
I wanna solve my problems on my own,
I wanna die someday, soon.

:O , I sound so like I like dying, Hahaha.

If only things were nicely planned and work out well for me everyday, if not heaven or whoever was kind enough not to play around with my life anymore. If only I could stop thinking so much when things happen. If only you were to stop hurting me.. What am I suppose to do, when I am sad? It's been so long since I vented my saddness and angerness on DDR, it's been so long since I have someone to vent my anger with on ddr.. It's been too long.. I don't wanna vent it on anyone, cause I obviously thinks that it's too much.. What can I do. ): . Ha. My heart/ brain is exploding..

FISHFISH,
Bu yao shangxin le, netnet is always here for youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. :D ,
MUACK. Yao Ji de o ! I'll always be there, Like what I gave you in F&N that day. :D

Somtimes, I took a long route to find the closest one to me,
but, I was prove wrong in the end.
What am I suppose to do now. Ha.

I wonder.,.

There's so many pictures, and Im lazy to say what pictures are on which day and stuffs.
So well. :D , LOL.

Okay, I've been thinking..
Sometimes, it'd be great to be all alone for a time,
walking on the streets alone,
having a night walk alone.
Just to get thoughts straighten out isn't it?
Perhaps not a shoulder is always needed when you're upset.
Not a ear either.
Just by yourself, you can get things right,

speaking about getting things right..
I always thought what I thought was right, would be right.
Since Im a veryveryvery stubborn girl, noone seems to can talk through me things that I insist on.
But why does it seems so hurt when my loved ones tells me what Im doing is wrong.

For times that I always thought everything was gonna be fine,
why does things got to happen in the wrong way?
Is it trying to tell me not to get happy with my life, and keeps worrying what's gonna happen next?
Or is this how my life goes, playing a fool out of me?

Okay, enough is enough, I believe this is enough for people who are reading my blog to know ^^ .
I dont wanna end up have people saying much about me, if they know too much.

Happy 20th anniversary dear,
You're the one who didn't give me up, when things happen.
Mly,
I believe I don't have to write much, cause it's all in our hearts ^^ .

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