Who am I to you?

Why does it feels so heartbreaking, to find out that people whom I thought understands me the most, be the ones who didnt understand me that well?
While others, might even understand me more then them.
So what if I could say everything to them? In the end, it won't help me at all..

Manymanymanymany questions in my head.
Are you going to tell me the answers?
Or am I going to run away from this problem again?

Run, ran, ran. is it this one? HAHAHA.
What to do, ): . Cant tell you, you, you, you you, you , you , youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. :(

I wanna be strong,
I wanna be independent,
I wanna do things on my own,
I wanna solve my problems on my own,
I wanna die someday, soon.

:O , I sound so like I like dying, Hahaha.

If only things were nicely planned and work out well for me everyday, if not heaven or whoever was kind enough not to play around with my life anymore. If only I could stop thinking so much when things happen. If only you were to stop hurting me.. What am I suppose to do, when I am sad? It's been so long since I vented my saddness and angerness on DDR, it's been so long since I have someone to vent my anger with on ddr.. It's been too long.. I don't wanna vent it on anyone, cause I obviously thinks that it's too much.. What can I do. ): . Ha. My heart/ brain is exploding..

FISHFISH,
Bu yao shangxin le, netnet is always here for youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. :D ,
MUACK. Yao Ji de o ! I'll always be there, Like what I gave you in F&N that day. :D

Somtimes, I took a long route to find the closest one to me,
but, I was prove wrong in the end.
What am I suppose to do now. Ha.