希望，

:O .
Suddenly, I dont feel sad for this moment,
so. Here I am trying to blog something, :D , Lol!

School was alright today.
heh! I dont like my chinese teacher. Not that she's not good.
But her teaching method is so not for me. ):
Bad. She keep skipping here & there.
Make me no heart to listen to class.
Actually, is me finding excuses. :x , heh!

I FAILED MY F&N.
I didn't studied. :x , Lol!

today had poa test.
I didn't study again. ): sucks.

I PASSED MY MATHS TEST FOR THE SECOND TIME. :O
Im so happy. :D , Lol!

Thank dear so overnight-ing. :x , Lol!
I know you would ask me not to say thanks.
But well. I LOVE YOU.
MUACKSMUACKS,.
stupidboy. :x , Lol! stop bullying me. ):

Am sick and tired.

Why try so hard?

Mr d means dear okay! Lol.
Why is everyone asking the same question sia! Lol!
dumb.

Cny was okok. Waiting for 31st for my big family dinner,
Hope it's gonna be at a nice restaurant this year.
Last year's dinner was bad food, high price. Lol!

Okay! Am here to type some thinkings again.
Not really to blog. :x , Hahah!

Why try so hard, when I know the ending is the same.
I really wanna give up sometimes.
Does it even matters how I feel.
I wanted to type something positive this post.
I even thought of what to type few hours back.
But why this now? Why!

Even though I know the positive me is for a lil while,
Even though I know it's all gonna be in the drain.
I rather I lie to myself.
I rather I fake a smile to make everyone happy.
I wanna be the one bringing happiness.
Keeping everything inside of me.
But I am not. I cant.
I dont wanna cry.
Am tired.

I don't wanna have my blog full of everything.
But where are people to talk to when I need one.
It's easy to find one.
But one that listens & gives good advice is different.
I know there's people there for me.
But where is the one I want.
):

不必要的，

When I fall,

Sometimes when you thought you got it,
You lost it again,
So why bother being so happy for a lil while,
and get the feeling back again.
It isn't really a good feeling to get back those emotions.
What's the use of trying to make things good,
When everything goes into the drain at the end of the day.

As I said. Didn't went to school on friday.
And I went to sentosa to celebrate weichao's birthday.
Was quite fun there. :D ,
But I wasn't feeling well there cause we cabbed to sentosa.
And I've got motion sickness, which cause me to wanna vomit. ):
Poor net.

Reached there & went to palawan beach with,
Scott, Weichao, JiaCheng, Weihaw, Tongwee, Jac, Weejin.
There was a lot of red ants okay!
Since I wasn't feeling well,
I was busy trying to kill them. :x ,
Of course I didn't manage to! :x . Heh!








Went to bath, then went to take the tram back to vivo.
Walked really a lil there!
Then me & ber went off first,
cause we was meeting kaikai & edna later on to boonkhiaw party.

Went to gekpoh to meet kaikai & edna,
and walked to boonkhiaw house. :D ,
got swimming pool leh. Make me feel like swimming again. ):
Went there to eat and basketball.
Not bad hor! my basketball skills!
Don't playplay! :x , hahah!

Today.
I went out to do my hair.
And now my hair really feels softer,
I hope it stays this way luh!
I'm so happy man! :x , LOL.

Went with bernard & his brother.
Then we brought his brother to bugis for shopping,
I got myself a top and bottom,
Finally saw what I wanted, Heh! :x
Im so not feeling well now. ):
Chinese new year is coming!
HOW! ):

When I saw you yesterday at the party,
when I saw you drinking.
I wanted to step forward to ask you why.
But i didn't went.
I did not wanted history to repeat itself.
But can you don't drink so much! ): roars!

Why do I have to find out things. So much things.
When I didn't want to.
Stupidity.

不要想，

:O I SAW CLEBIN ONLINE LEH! LOL.
aw~ clebin I know you will be reading my blog uh!
don't lie! Lol.

Okay. school was alright today, I think.
I forgottten what happen today leh! how. ):
class noticeboard was torn.
Bad thing to do, If you are the one, I hope your guilty. Lol.
hahah! I sound so not threatening. ): Lol.

tomorrow not gonna go schooool.
I know baobao will miss me heh! :D ,
i shall update pictures soon.
My blog seems so wordy. eeeks. Lol.

不明白，不了解，

I've tried too hard, way too hard.
It was all about me, forcing myself to.
What am I exactly doing, Why am I doing this to myself.
When I know it's not worth it, I'm still trying.
Many seeks for truth,
But what I want is ignorance.
I wanna act like I don't know.
I wanna be someone who doesn't bothers.
But, I'm not. Too tired. I'm way too tired.
To gu, or to co, It's my choice.
I don't wanna make a choice. Sometimes, being fds is better.

Today school was okay.
Was rather bored in chinese. wanna fall asleep already. Lol.
Hahah! Im so bored now at home too.
I'm trying to do things. to stop me from thinking. :x , LOL.
cool hor me. :D

after school stayed back for remedial,
IM SUCH A GOODGIRL RIGHT. :D,
xiexie uh! HEH. :D

16012009.

Losing it and finding it back and losing it again,

Okay. I'm gonna update about what happened on 16~ Heh.
I'm not sure if I'm gonna lose this time.
Cause it's way too difficult to forget.
I know I've got to face it. But i wanna run away.
I rather be stucked in a confused mind, not knowing what to do.
But I'm forcing myself to come up to a decision every single day.

School was on 16~ but since it's a Friday, school ended at 1220!
Was really waiting for school to end.
But I think ber did not reach there when I go out? I forgottt. Heh.

Then walked to lakeside with, minmin, diqi, nigel, ber. :D
waited for the kaikai who is always late okay!
Then chatted awhile, me & ber went off.
Went to bugis for my cny clothes.
Not really alot things attracted me there.
So went to fareast, saw 1 that I really like,
But it was 50 bucks. Decided to let it go, ):
Mum said she wanted to get it for me, But well. better not. Hahaha.

Then walked around, sitted down. bullied him the whole day. Heh!
Then went off to newton for food!
Food was spicy. ): I had 2 longan drinks,
Thanks for ber for finishing the food! :x , Hahah!
Continued to bully him the whole day! :x ,

Reached home around 9+ cause I was pretty tired,
Talked to ber through the night. But I dozed off like a pig.
Hahah! I think I should stop dozing off. I dozed off 2 days already. :x

Presents, He got me a couple cup. I'm using it now okay. :D , Heh.
I got him this! :D , I PASTED THINGS MYSELF OKAY! :D


When I thought it was the day,
I was still confused. What am I to do.
I said it out, but I'm still confused. Will L carry me on this time?

Round and round.

I I I . AM NOT HAPPY. :D , lol.
Okay, Since im blogging weekly,
I don't see a point to blog what I did daily right.
Who would be bothered to see either. tsk.

Happy 14th month. ily.

Lovelove,
when something happen to you,
You know I'm an sms away.
Even though my phone has problems.
I'll try my best to be 24/7 for you,
girl. I believe you know what's right.
I believe you can do this, :D .

When I thought I found it,
I lost it again.

没有勇气继续。

When you suddenly realises you don't know what's happening,
When you suddenly realises you're not in the state of mind,
When you suddenly realises the heart is not there,
When you suddenly realises theres someone,

Okay,
Since I stopped blogging from next saturday.
Perhaps I should start from there?

Didn't stayed at home as intended.
Went out with mum & brother to buy my boots.
BOOTS LEH, I WANT. ):
But I couldn't find 1 that i really wanted.
Didn't wanted to get something not really attractive to me.

Then went for dinner at xin char can ting.
Whichever spelling. Lol.

Suddenly Im lazy to blog sia.
:x?
HEHH.
PS: DIQI WONG. MY BACK. ): MUST FU ZHE REN!

ByeBye.

I will be gone for blogging for a lil while.
will blog soon. (not because I'm lazy okay) . :x heh.
My days are bored, Not really. Maybe a lil.
But there are great people to brighten me up.
Bye. I know you guys will miss me. Heh.

未来不是我知道的，

When you left,

Today, I'm a goodgirl staying at home okay! Haha.
Slept till 1+ and realise ber came over my house,
giving me a surprise. Heh.

Stop blaming me for everything.
I treated you the same way as how I treated others.
I don't know you'd feel different.
How the fuck would I know.
And stop trying to make me feel bad about it.
You said you hate me? Try to hate me then.
I'm not stopping you.-.-
I didn't even do anything. And I get this kind of nonsense.
Wtf, -.- .

希望都变成了悲伤。

You failed to spot me from the crowd,
每句话，我都记得。
我不是你想象中的坚强，
我要的只是一点点的幸福。

School is reopened! Okay. Stop this one first. Lol.

Went to countdown at vivo!
Read Lovelove's blog & realised she was there too!
But I didn't saw her! ):
So sad de neh! Hahah.
Saw the fireworks a lil only.
Everyone was like sua gu there,
So we decided to walk off. -.-
So difficult to see it too. Lol.
Then went to nigel aunty house to slack. :D
I became the wangwangxiaomantou.-.-
Cause his aunty says I'm lucky. Hahah!


School is reopened!
My hair a lil too messy ah. :x Lol.
So fun de neh.
I whole day singing nursery songs & Kissing baobao. :D
Jessica & kahfai is sitting infront of us.
OHOH, not to forget fazi & rayson behind,
Fazi keep talking can! Lol.
He gave me a souvenior. How to spell it. -.- Lol.
Okay, I want the silver one. Bully sia him.
Ask, then give me the bronze one. Eeks.

Miss Lee is my formteacher. Yucks.
Then she catch my hair say got colour sia.
Fucking blind. Lol.
It's natural okay. Why would I ruin my hair even more.
Sian. This year, lessons gonna be boring.
I hope I will pay attention. Which I won't.
But I'll try my best. Afterall, it's what I'm suppose to do right.
Heh.

Wanted to upload that Uniform picture.
Looks fat right. Mum doesn't believes me. ): Hahah.
Okay, now my merorystick can't put back into my phone.
And I'm so sad okay. Lol.

It's a new year.
Everything should start from a beginning like everyone is saying.
It's a new year. New start.
But why, does it seems to me.
Like I'm continuing the cycle.
I wanna start like a brand new piece of paper.
I don't wish to continue in my scribbled paper. ):
2009 isn't great to me either. Sucks.