Am sick and tired.

Why try so hard?

Mr d means dear okay! Lol.
Why is everyone asking the same question sia! Lol!
dumb.

Cny was okok. Waiting for 31st for my big family dinner,
Hope it's gonna be at a nice restaurant this year.
Last year's dinner was bad food, high price. Lol!

Okay! Am here to type some thinkings again.
Not really to blog. :x , Hahah!

Why try so hard, when I know the ending is the same.
I really wanna give up sometimes.
Does it even matters how I feel.
I wanted to type something positive this post.
I even thought of what to type few hours back.
But why this now? Why!

Even though I know the positive me is for a lil while,
Even though I know it's all gonna be in the drain.
I rather I lie to myself.
I rather I fake a smile to make everyone happy.
I wanna be the one bringing happiness.
Keeping everything inside of me.
But I am not. I cant.
I dont wanna cry.
Am tired.

I don't wanna have my blog full of everything.
But where are people to talk to when I need one.
It's easy to find one.
But one that listens & gives good advice is different.
I know there's people there for me.
But where is the one I want.
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